I am me. Feeling completely alone despite being surrounded by people. Feeling like the odd one out, despite laughter and fun. Feeling like I just want to hide from everyone. Feeling cold, even when directly in the sun. Feeling stuck, feeling helpless, unable to help my loved ones. Telling myself everything will be OK, […]
As I tried to comfort my son today, I felt a huge wave of anxiety threatening to drown me again. This wasn’t the first time and I know it won’t be the last. I tried to get through to him but I just could not. I felt extremely sad, extremely helpless. He was upset, he […]
Today I woke up feeling even more alone than I usually do. That is saying something, because I always feel alone. No matter how many times my loved ones say they love me, depression makes me feel like they don’t. So when I woke up this morning with a crushed spirit and a hurting heart, […]
Introduction Ah, the chaotic mind I have sometimes! What fun it is to try to explain why I’m moody, or scared or … anything really … Just to fail Dismally in doing so. Depression is a particularly malicious beast and I find myself at a loss for words when I try to put […]
Introduction One afternoon, I was listening in on an audio social networking app to a person talking about her dark feelings. I tried to fight really hard, in order to reach within me to find the words, not just any words but, the right words to say to help this person. But, I couldn’t. […]